This is a rant in parts, which all are related:
Someone asked me if I could sew something for them. They wanted (I already might have mentioned it before, not sure though) dresses so they could go visit children's birthday parties dressed up as princess. Think Disney princesses, Jasmin, Belle, Elsa.
I am very good at sewing, very good, and although I was a little reluctant, I agreed because at that time I had nothing better to do.
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So typical;
Then I don't hear from then in months, actually almost a year. Then I get an e-mail on Friday, late in the afternoon. If I can have it finished by Monday. I didn't read the mail until Saturday evening, because, let's face it, I'm not glued to my computer and have loads of other stuff to do, especially since I had been gone for three days. Mailed back, sorry no can do Monday, will be Tuesday afternoon. (Yes I managed that, yay me! Although it's not the quality that I'm used to deliver, but what the heck, see 2)
Call them Tuesday, I'm done, come pick it up, made appointment for Wednesday 11:30.
At 10:00 they call, can't make it.
Now they come on Friday.
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And then there's the financial part of it. We agreed to 200 euro per dress. Mind you, that includes drawing a pattern FROM SCRATCH. Yes, I am good at that too.
In their e-mail they offered me 100 euro per dress.
My daughter S told me, that if they want to pay 100 euro they should not get the 200 euro quality, and she's right. Although it pains me, I'll give them a 100 euro quality.
They asked someone else before me and they charged 800 euro. So to cut back like that feels like a total under appreciation for what I do and a stab in the back. They have no idea how much work goes into something like this.
Yes, it hurts.
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It took so long for them to get back at me, that I had the time to find out what I want to do with the rest of my life, and that is not sewing. So I already told them that I would make what we agreed to, that is two dresses for the Elsa character, (one for her and one for a stand-in). And I now made the top for the Jasmin character, (for her. She had a baby and the old top didn't fit anymore.)
After two days of sewing I now remember why I shouldn't do it. My back hurts like hell and I feel so angry when I'm sewing. I remember that they always want to pay less then it's worth and they always want it done yesterday.
And I am psychologically not aggressive enough to tell it to them if they want something that is not possible.
Somehow I highly doubt if they accept me not wanting to do this.
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Another reason why I don't want to have to deal with them anymore, is that she is trying (without her being aware of it!) to decide what I have to do with my future. I should do "this" and make "that", she'll help me with it.
Please let me make my own decisions about my future, I'm very capable of doing so, but alas, like I said, I am psychologically not aggressive enough to go against it.
So right now I feel angry, sad, annoyed like hell. I feel like I wasted time doing something that I don't like doing, while I didn't do the things I wanted and needed to do.
(I'm making a book on tatting at which I haven't been able to work on for two weeks, which frustrates me!)
Thanks for reading this, I think I'm going to look at some funny cat video's, that will cheer me up.